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1.2.14
13.1.14
It was last week, when i attend my friend's wedding. He is my friend, a good one...actually one of the best male friend that i ever had a long phone conversation with. Haha. I'm happy for them, and had wait this marriage for 10 years....hahaha since they're already dating more than 10 years.
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| Congrats Friend! So happy for you |
This is my first time attending my classmate's wedding because i lived miles away from my hometown dan tentu tidak semudah itu bagi saya untuk mudik sesuka hati. Yang jelas, belum tentu dapat izin cuti dan mahal di ongkos. (capek pake English! he he he).
Teman sekelas yang saya maksud disini adalah teman sekelas waktu di kelas 3 IPA SMA. Tidak seperti sekarang, pada waktu saya sekolah dulu hanya ada satu kelas jurusan IPA dan itupun dengan jumlah siswa terbatas 21 orang, 11 orang laki - laki dan 10 orang perempuan. Dengan jumlah siswa yang sedikit, pertemanan kami satu kelas lebih kompak, terlebih tidak ada 'anak nakal' di kelas kami. Kelas kami hidup dengan harmoninya.
Pernikahan kawan saya yang satu ini, mengingatkan saya bahwa dari kami ber 21, saya satu - satunya perempuan yang belum menikah dan mungkin termasuk 4 member terakhir yang belum menikah. Well, topik 'pernikahan' masih menjadi topik hangat bagi saya. Bahkan, tadi siang mama yang mengingatkan bahwa minggu depan adalah ulang tahun saya, menanyakan: sudah berapa usiamu nak? Beliau sebenarnya menyembunyikan kecemasan akan putri 27 tahunnya ini yang bahkan tidak punya pacar. Saya sendiri bahkan mempertanyakan, kapan saya menikah.
Sebetulnya target menikah saya sudah lewat, dan karena sudah lewat saya tidak memasang target usia lagi. Sejujurnya, saya masih mencemaskan kehidupan pasca menikah dan punya anak, ya, ketakutan dan kecemasan akan hal yang belum terjadi. Namun pada sisi lain, saya kadang ingin menyegerakannya, atas alasan ibadah. Sepertinya semakin bertambah usia, ketakutan dan kecemasan saya bertambah - tambah, tidak hanya pada soal menikah, tapi pada hal lainnya juga.
Pada akhirnya, saya tidak ingin memikirkannya, lebih baik memfokuskan pada perbaikan diri, menikmati kesendirian dengan waktu luang seperti ini dan memperbanyak membaca dan menulis. Toh, karena saya belum menikah, saya memiliki lebih banyak waktu dan kesempatan berbakti pada kedua orang tua dan membalas kebaikan kakak - kakak saya selama ini. Karena saya belum menikah, saya memahami bagaimana saya harus mempersiapkan diri menjadi ibu dan istri kelak. Karena saya belum menikah, saya punya waktu penuh untuk menekuni pekerjaan dan banyak bacaaan. Jadi, woles aja deh sis! :D
-tiech-
10.1.14
Fuh! Fuh. Niup blog yang lama sudah tidak bertuan sambil dengerin lagu - lagu Urban Zakapa.
Sudah lama nian saya tidak berkunjung dan mempublikasikan tulisan disini. Ah, sebenarnya sudah berulang kali saya menulis, tapi semua hanya sampai pada tataran draft. Tidak berani saya publikasikan. Khawatir. Mungkin lebih tepatnya takut, orang akan menghakimi tulisan dan pikiran saya yang sangat transparan ini.:))
Malam ini saya menulis lagi, membiarkan isi hati dan pikiran saya terketuk - ketuk di tuts keyboard. Pada saat yang sama laporan menumpuk. Seperti sama dengan tahun - tahun sebelumnya. Tapi sungguh tahun ini tidaklah tahun yang sama. Saya, pun merasa tidak sama (kecuali soal berat badan, hehe).
Ini Desember, bulan dimana saya selalu merefleksikan banyak hal. Keputusan setahun silam misalnya. Biasanya saya menyesal melihat resolusi yang tidak tersempurnakan, tapi Desember tahun ini saya bersyukur bahwa saya hanya membuat satu resolusi. Resolusi yang menggiring saya pada keputusan besar. Keputusan yang kemudian membuat hari - hari yang saya jalani menjadi lebih sarat makna. Kalaulah Allah dapat saya peluk, itu yang akan saya lakukan saat ini. Bersyukur, berterima kasih Dia membimbing saya mengambil keputusan ini.
Keputusan kembali ke rumah. Menjalankan peran sebagai anak, adik, bibi, keponakan dan karyawan di rumah. Beradaptasi dengan hal - hal yang sudah lama saya tinggalkan, cukup membuat saya sibuk hingga semakin jarang menonton drama Korea :)). Hampir setahun sudah saya kembali, masih banyak hal yang ingin saya lakukan. Misi - misi yang sudah tersusun rapi, buyar semua untuk diselesaikan. Misalnya, Misi menjadi koki masakan untuk penderita Diabetes di rumah. Hmm, jadi hanya sekedar cita - cita, karena hakikatnya, Bapak dan Mama tidak makan masakan saya, dan mama lebih menyukai memasak sendiri. Untuk seorang pensiunan yang aktivitasnya semakin berkurang, memasak adalah salah satu cara ibu saya mengisi waktunya. Dan, faktor x lain yang membuat misi - misi saya gagal adalah....ketika di rumah orang tua entah kenapa energi malas saya berlipat - lipat jadinya, bahkan untuk berjalan sejauh 100 m saja, duh malasnya bukan main. Berbeda kalau saya tinggal sendiri atau tinggal di rumah kakak saya, masih malas siih *gubrak* tapi tidak dalam tahap malas akut.
Pontianak, 6 Desember 2013
Mari kita lanjutkan.
Ini sudah Januari, pada 10 hari pertama. Semua deadline sudah terlewati, kebutuhan pekerjaan sudah dipenuhi. Dan, akhirnya datanglah masa - masa pengangguran. Saya kembali ke rumah orang tua, dan kembali menjadi....si pemalas. Hehehe. Tapi jangan bayangkan saya sedang leyeh - leyeh di kursi malas, atau tidur sepanjang hari. Nope! Saya si pemalas yang cukup sibuk, dan cukup rajin melawan rasa malas. He?
Setidaknya, saya sibuk meladeni 3 ponakan saya yang sedak aktif - aktifnya. Hmm, at least my mission being a helpful sister and an aunt is accomplished.
And, hey! I totally forget what this post about. Haha. Random banget deh. But i'll post it anyway, this blog is my notes, tough. :))
-tiech-
Sudah lama nian saya tidak berkunjung dan mempublikasikan tulisan disini. Ah, sebenarnya sudah berulang kali saya menulis, tapi semua hanya sampai pada tataran draft. Tidak berani saya publikasikan. Khawatir. Mungkin lebih tepatnya takut, orang akan menghakimi tulisan dan pikiran saya yang sangat transparan ini.:))
Malam ini saya menulis lagi, membiarkan isi hati dan pikiran saya terketuk - ketuk di tuts keyboard. Pada saat yang sama laporan menumpuk. Seperti sama dengan tahun - tahun sebelumnya. Tapi sungguh tahun ini tidaklah tahun yang sama. Saya, pun merasa tidak sama (kecuali soal berat badan, hehe).
Ini Desember, bulan dimana saya selalu merefleksikan banyak hal. Keputusan setahun silam misalnya. Biasanya saya menyesal melihat resolusi yang tidak tersempurnakan, tapi Desember tahun ini saya bersyukur bahwa saya hanya membuat satu resolusi. Resolusi yang menggiring saya pada keputusan besar. Keputusan yang kemudian membuat hari - hari yang saya jalani menjadi lebih sarat makna. Kalaulah Allah dapat saya peluk, itu yang akan saya lakukan saat ini. Bersyukur, berterima kasih Dia membimbing saya mengambil keputusan ini.
Keputusan kembali ke rumah. Menjalankan peran sebagai anak, adik, bibi, keponakan dan karyawan di rumah. Beradaptasi dengan hal - hal yang sudah lama saya tinggalkan, cukup membuat saya sibuk hingga semakin jarang menonton drama Korea :)). Hampir setahun sudah saya kembali, masih banyak hal yang ingin saya lakukan. Misi - misi yang sudah tersusun rapi, buyar semua untuk diselesaikan. Misalnya, Misi menjadi koki masakan untuk penderita Diabetes di rumah. Hmm, jadi hanya sekedar cita - cita, karena hakikatnya, Bapak dan Mama tidak makan masakan saya, dan mama lebih menyukai memasak sendiri. Untuk seorang pensiunan yang aktivitasnya semakin berkurang, memasak adalah salah satu cara ibu saya mengisi waktunya. Dan, faktor x lain yang membuat misi - misi saya gagal adalah....ketika di rumah orang tua entah kenapa energi malas saya berlipat - lipat jadinya, bahkan untuk berjalan sejauh 100 m saja, duh malasnya bukan main. Berbeda kalau saya tinggal sendiri atau tinggal di rumah kakak saya, masih malas siih *gubrak* tapi tidak dalam tahap malas akut.
Pontianak, 6 Desember 2013
Mari kita lanjutkan.
Ini sudah Januari, pada 10 hari pertama. Semua deadline sudah terlewati, kebutuhan pekerjaan sudah dipenuhi. Dan, akhirnya datanglah masa - masa pengangguran. Saya kembali ke rumah orang tua, dan kembali menjadi....si pemalas. Hehehe. Tapi jangan bayangkan saya sedang leyeh - leyeh di kursi malas, atau tidur sepanjang hari. Nope! Saya si pemalas yang cukup sibuk, dan cukup rajin melawan rasa malas. He?
Setidaknya, saya sibuk meladeni 3 ponakan saya yang sedak aktif - aktifnya. Hmm, at least my mission being a helpful sister and an aunt is accomplished.
And, hey! I totally forget what this post about. Haha. Random banget deh. But i'll post it anyway, this blog is my notes, tough. :))
-tiech-
10.4.13
15.7.12
I know I shouldn’t cry already but why do I keep crying?
My heart toward you acts however it wants
So it keeps sending me to you
It hurts so much that I’m the only one who feels like this
That you aren’t looking at me
Though you are probably uncomfortable with me
* I still love you, I love you
Though I don’t know anything else, I know I want you
The more I try to approach you, the more I try to get closer,
You try to run away and that makes me lonely
** My tears are not stopping
You can’t, can’t, can’t get farther away
Don’t run away, don’t turn away from me, please
Because our happy and good times keep passing me by,
Because I feel like I will regret this till I die,
I have something to tell you right now
* Repeat
Whenever you want to come back, you can come back to me
Because I love you
I’m okay even if you don’t love me
If I can just see you, I’m fine with anything
The more I love you, the deeper this gets,
You get farther away and that scares me
** Repeat
#translation: @popgasa.com
28.3.12
Hi everyone. It's been a long time....i'm busy with my work lately and also just want to let you know that i'm taking Korean Language Course now. hehe.
Bloggers, i've just listened a new song from OST. King 2 Hearts. A song by Taeyeon SNSD: "Missing You Like Crazy". Oh, i 'm in love with this song. A great voice+ deep emotion+ deep lyrics + beautiful ballad melody = perfect.
In case you haven't listen to her song, check it below.
Missing You Like Crazy
(Lyrics, Romanization and English Translation)
by Taeyeon of Girls Generation
날 모르나요
Nal murenayo
Don't you
know me?
내가 여기 있는 이유는 그댄데
Naega yeogi
itneun iyuneun geudaende
The reason
I'm here is you
눈이 시려와
Nuni
siryeowa
My eyes are
blinded
말을 할 수 없네요
Mareul halsu
eotneyo
And I can't
seem to speak
혼자서 바라만 볼뿐
Honjaseo baraman
bolpun
All I can do
is just look out alone
이렇게 가슴 끝이 아파도
이렇게 가슴 끝이 아파도
Ireohke gaseum
keutchi aphado
My heart is
hurting to its last bit like this
이렇게 손끝이 떨려도,
Ireohge sonkeutchi
teolyeodo
My
fingertips are trembling like this
그대 생각만 나지요
Geudae saenggangman
najiyo
But I can
only think of you
미치게 보고 싶은 사람
미치게 보고 싶은 사람
Michige bogosiphen
saram
The person I
miss like crazy
미치게 듣고 싶은 너의 한마디
Michige dedgo
siphen neoe hanmadi
One word
from you that I want to hear like crazy
사랑해 사랑해요 그대는 어딨나요
Saranghae saranghaeyo
geudaeneun eodinayo
I love you,
I love you, where are you?
가슴 깊이 박힌 그리운 사람
Gaseum giphi
baghin geuriyun saram
The person I
long for, ingrained in my heart
그대 영원히 간직할래요
Geudae yeongwonhi ganjigalaeyo
I'm going to
cherish you forever
어떡하나요
어떡하나요
Eoteokhanayo
What do I
do?
차가웠던 그대가
차가웠던 그대가
chagawotteon
geudaega
You were so
cold
그래도 보고싶어요
geuraedo
bogosipheoyo
But I still
miss you
이렇게 가슴 끝이 아파도
이렇게 가슴 끝이 아파도
ireohke
gaseum keutchi aphado
My heart is
hurting to its last bit like this
이렇게 손끝이 떨려도
이렇게 손끝이 떨려도
ireohke
sonkeutchi teolyeodo
My
fingertips are trembling like this
그댈 잊을 수가 없어
geudael icheul suga eobseo
But I can't
forget you
미치게 보고 싶은 사람
Michige bogosipheun
saram
The person I
miss like crazy
미치게 듣고 싶은 너의 한마디
미치게 듣고 싶은 너의 한마디
Michige deudgosipheun
neoe hanmadi
One word
from you that I want to hear like crazy
사랑해 사랑해요 그대는 어딨나요
사랑해 사랑해요 그대는 어딨나요
Saranghae saranghaeyo
geudaenen eodinayo
I love you,
I love you, where are you?
가슴 깊이 박힌 그리운 사람
가슴 깊이 박힌 그리운 사람
Gaseum giphi
baghin geuriun saram
The person I
long for, ingrained in my heart
내게 말 해줘요 날 간직 한다고
내게 말 해줘요 날 간직 한다고
Naege malhaejwoyo
nal ganjig handago
Please tell
me, you'll cherish me
하얗게 지우면 안돼요
하얗게 지우면 안돼요
Hayagae jiumyeon
andwaeyo
You can't
erase me clean
내 전부이니까
Nae jeonbuinikka
Because
you're my all
미치게 보고 싶은 사람
미치게 보고 싶은 사람
Michige bogosipheun
saram
The person I
miss like crazy
미치게 듣고 싶은 너의 한마디
미치게 듣고 싶은 너의 한마디
Michige deudgosipheun
neoe hanmadi
One word
from you that I want to hear like crazy
사랑해 사랑해요 그대는 어딨나요
Saranghae saranghaeyo
geudaeneun eodinayo
I love you,
I love you, where are you?
가슴 깊이 박힌 그리운 사람 그대
Gaseum giphi
baghin geuriun saram geudae
The person I
long for, ingrained in my heart is you
영원히 간직할래요
영원히 간직할래요
Yeongwonhi ganjighallaeyo
I'm going to
cherish you forever
사랑해 사랑해요
사랑해 사랑해요
Saranghae saranghaeyo
I love you,
I love you
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Lyrics by Park Haewoon and Park Jongmi
Arranged by Park Haewoon
Translations: taengbear@soshified.com
Romanization: tiech (its me!)*
* i'm still learning korean, so if you find mistakes in my romanization kindly tell me :) thanks.
21.2.12
Oh, thanks to Pop!Gasa again! Finally, english translation for Big Bang's Blue released!
I will post romanization later, i'm still working in it (with Google Translate of course :D)
Big Bang - Blue
*The winter had passed
And the spring has come
We have withered
And our hearts are bruised from longing
**(I’m singing my blues)
Used to the blue tears, blue sorrow
(I’m singing my blues)
The love that I have sent away with the floating clouds, oh oh
Under the same sky, at different places
Because you and I are dangerous
I am leaving you
One letter difference from ‘nim’^
It’s cowardly but I’m hiding because I’m not good enough
Cruel breakup is like the end of the road of love
No words can comfort me
Perhaps my lifetime’s last melodrama
Now its final curtain is coming down
I was born and I met you
And I have loved you to death
My cold heart that has been dyed blue
Even with my eyes closed, I can’t feel you
*Repeat
**Repeat
I feel like my heart has stopped beating
You and I, frozen there, after a war
Trauma, that has been carved in my head
Once these tears dry up, I will moistly remember my love
I’m neither painful nor lonely
Happiness is all self-talk
I can’t stand something more complicated
It’s no big deal, I don’t care
Inevitable wandering, people come and go
I was born and I met you
And I have loved you to death
My cold heart that has been dyed blue
Even if you have left, I’m still here
*Repeat
Again tonight, underneath that blue moonlight
I will probably fall asleep alone
Even in my dreams, I look for you
And wander around while singing this song
**Repeat (X2)
^ "nim" means "my special one" while with one letter difference, "nam" means "stranger"
credits: Pop!Gasa
I will post romanization later, i'm still working in it (with Google Translate of course :D)
Big Bang - Blue
*The winter had passed
And the spring has come
We have withered
And our hearts are bruised from longing
**(I’m singing my blues)
Used to the blue tears, blue sorrow
(I’m singing my blues)
The love that I have sent away with the floating clouds, oh oh
Under the same sky, at different places
Because you and I are dangerous
I am leaving you
One letter difference from ‘nim’^
It’s cowardly but I’m hiding because I’m not good enough
Cruel breakup is like the end of the road of love
No words can comfort me
Perhaps my lifetime’s last melodrama
Now its final curtain is coming down
I was born and I met you
And I have loved you to death
My cold heart that has been dyed blue
Even with my eyes closed, I can’t feel you
*Repeat
**Repeat
I feel like my heart has stopped beating
You and I, frozen there, after a war
Trauma, that has been carved in my head
Once these tears dry up, I will moistly remember my love
I’m neither painful nor lonely
Happiness is all self-talk
I can’t stand something more complicated
It’s no big deal, I don’t care
Inevitable wandering, people come and go
I was born and I met you
And I have loved you to death
My cold heart that has been dyed blue
Even if you have left, I’m still here
*Repeat
Again tonight, underneath that blue moonlight
I will probably fall asleep alone
Even in my dreams, I look for you
And wander around while singing this song
**Repeat (X2)
^ "nim" means "my special one" while with one letter difference, "nam" means "stranger"
credits: Pop!Gasa
I'm really happy right now! Big Bang just released a song! I've been waiting for them for a long time. Now, i can see them ALIVE. Oh, I miss them so much. And i love this song - Blue so much. It's a masterpiece! *fangirl mode, teary eyes.
It is blue and it is mellow.
Watch the MV for yourself below!
It is blue and it is mellow.
Watch the MV for yourself below!
Yeah, Miss A is Back, with a new song that already swept all the chart!.
Lagu ini kalau pertama di dengar agak gimana ya, hmm, it's not the type that you will like at first, but the more you listen to it, the more you like it. Yeah, i played this song and watched the MV more than 10 times today. The MV and the choreography is really UNIQUE.
Saya suka MV dan gerakan dancenya. Unik dan agak bikin nagih pengen ikutan nari, hehehe. Kalau menurut saya, konsep tariannya mirip gerakan mumi. Mungkin karena dekat dengan filosofi hati yang tertutup atau hati yang mati. Haha, itu teori saya loh. Belum tentu benar, hihi.
Mungkin mennadari betapa dunia sekarang sedang mengamati K-POP, JYP berbaik hati menyediakan subtitle english buat lagu ini (jangan lupa turn on the CC button di pojok kanan video youtubenya)
Hmm, let's check it below.
Oh, tentu saja saya akan berbagi liriknya.
(Disclaimer: romanized lyrics and english translation is from kpoplyrics.net and pop!gasa)
Eoneusae nae gaseumi yeolligo isseo
Lagu ini kalau pertama di dengar agak gimana ya, hmm, it's not the type that you will like at first, but the more you listen to it, the more you like it. Yeah, i played this song and watched the MV more than 10 times today. The MV and the choreography is really UNIQUE.
Saya suka MV dan gerakan dancenya. Unik dan agak bikin nagih pengen ikutan nari, hehehe. Kalau menurut saya, konsep tariannya mirip gerakan mumi. Mungkin karena dekat dengan filosofi hati yang tertutup atau hati yang mati. Haha, itu teori saya loh. Belum tentu benar, hihi.
Mungkin mennadari betapa dunia sekarang sedang mengamati K-POP, JYP berbaik hati menyediakan subtitle english buat lagu ini (jangan lupa turn on the CC button di pojok kanan video youtubenya)
Hmm, let's check it below.
Oh, tentu saja saya akan berbagi liriknya.
(Disclaimer: romanized lyrics and english translation is from kpoplyrics.net and pop!gasa)
Touch
by: Miss A
Dadhin
nae gaseumeun, Nu-gudo sarang-hal suga eopt-da
My
closed heart cannot love anyone
geureohke
mideo-nneunde
I
believed so
Eoneusae nae gaseumi yeolligo isseo
but
my heart is opening before I knew it
gudeun nae gaseumeun, Tashineun seolle-il suga eopt-da
gudeun nae gaseumeun, Tashineun seolle-il suga eopt-da
My
hardened heart cannot be thrilled again
geureohke
mideo-nneunde
I
believed so
Neoreul
bol ttae-mada nae gaseumi ttwiiyeo
but
my heart pounds every time I see you
**You
touch my heart baby (touch touch)
You touch my heart baby (touch touch)
Budeureoun songillo, Nae ma-eumeul eorumanjyeo (touch)
You touch my heart baby (touch touch)
Budeureoun songillo, Nae ma-eumeul eorumanjyeo (touch)
You
touch my heart with your soft hands (touch)
You
touch my heart baby (touch touch)
You touch my heart baby (touch touch)
Nae ma-eumeul modu da, Da da kajyeo kasseo (touch)
You touch my heart baby (touch touch)
Nae ma-eumeul modu da, Da da kajyeo kasseo (touch)
You
took away all of my heart (touch)
Sang-cheoreul
jugido, Badgido ije-neun cheongmal shirhda
I
really hate to bruise or be bruised anymore
Keureohke
mideo-nneunde
I
believed so
Neowahneun waeh keureon ili eopseul keot kanni
but
why do I think that, it won’t be like that with you
Gaseume
sang-cheo-ga, Na-euryeomyeon han-chami geollil keoda
It
will take long to cure the wounds in my heart
Keureohke
mideo-nneunde
I
believed so
Eoneusae
nae-ga neoye pume ankyeoisseo
but
I am already in your arms before I knew it
**
(2X)
Rap:
Eo-reumcheoreom
cha-gawojin nae gaseum
My
heart that became as cold as ice
Eoneusaenka salmyeoshi ppaeaseun
Eoneusaenka salmyeoshi ppaeaseun
At
some point, you softly stole it
Neoneun ttaseuha-ge bichineun haessal
Neoneun ttaseuha-ge bichineun haessal
You
are a warm, shining sunlight
Nae sang-cheoe tashi naneun sae sal
Nae sang-cheoe tashi naneun sae sal
On
my scar, and new skin is growing over it
Nado
moreuge eoneusae neo-ye-ge gidae
Without
me knowing, at some point, I lean on you
Haneu-ri tashi han beon nae-ge gihwehreul
Jun geol-jido moreundaneun saenggagi
Haneu-ri tashi han beon nae-ge gihwehreul
Jun geol-jido moreundaneun saenggagi
I
think the heavens might have given me one more chance
Nae ma-eume deu-reo baby
Nae ma-eume deu-reo baby
That's
what I think baby
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credit:
English Translation (Rap Part): @Pop!Gasa
Romanized and English Translation: @KpopLyrics.net
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It's been a while since i updated my post last year bloggers...did you miss me? ;p
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Thanks for following Tiech's Notes.
I've been pretty busy lately, so i didn't have enough time to take care my blog.
Woohooo, and what will i write for my next post?
Hmm, maybe K-POP lyrics again?
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Okay, lets start blogging today...!!
with love, tiech.
It's been a while since i updated my post last year bloggers...did you miss me? ;p
Wooo, it looks like i got more followers here....Hello everyone :)
Thanks for following Tiech's Notes.
I've been pretty busy lately, so i didn't have enough time to take care my blog.
Woohooo, and what will i write for my next post?
Hmm, maybe K-POP lyrics again?
Is that one of the reason you're following my blog?
Okay, lets start blogging today...!!
with love, tiech.
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